I find the idea of people who knows me reading what I write is quite terrifying these days.

And probably, that's why I haven't written anything here. I just don't want to be read as me. I want to write something and people who read it just be like oh yeah somebody wrote this haha fun.

I also kind of dream about my sanctuary more and more lately that I really consider opening a new bank account where I'll just transfer some of my money monthly to that account and use it someday to get a new place for myself. Unfortunately I can't be done until at least when I'm 17 and that's not so long anymore so there's that I guess.

I don't know. It's just that I want to get away from something. Someone. Start new. Not me.

so bye.